fell off the wagon again today alas

super high anxiety but trying my darndest to not drink it away

anyway watching my cat destroy everything and my mom calling repeatedly (3 times in 30 minutes) to ramble about shit she's told me at least 2-3 times before

[bar stories]

[booze stuff] came to the decision today that i was gonna double my last record of 1 month and go for 2 months... i realized that 2 months from tomorrow was valentines day

[cw: self harm] well i don't really wanna talk about it but i guess i oughts

[LYRICS] Thrice - Black Honey [HD] ▶ hands down this song describes how i feel with all this [helperflop]

blarghy warghy hunkering down to work on myself bit by bit. reading all the advice columns/articlesss, making a mental inventory about things i'm unhappy about and why

anywho alcoholism is shit i went a month without drinking

also update for here but this weekend and tonight i fell off the wagon alas gonna try to get back on it