[Alcoholism] sometimes, like tonight, it feels like theres no such thing as drunk enough

[alcoholism] just gonna dump some thoughts here on and off

ok tonight is the night I get back on track mentally preparing for the withdrawals and detox ugh they gonna be worse than last time

drunk bored went cruising for a party wtf self

tried to get my mom off the phone 3 times now, put her on speaker and walked away finally

I have so many updates on the Nikki situation and life in general

well i drank so much last night i called a cab so now i have to get my car from the bar

as I sit in a bar I realize I don't want 2017 to turn into an onslaught of bar tales

things i've discovered in my drinking binges the past few months:

i feel like i been drinking nonstop since nikki took mason away. we think they're in florida