Sometimes you feel sad

I think I'll talk about this here instead of on twitter since a friend of mine just got in a fender bender and feels terrible.

And I wish I wasn't so paranoid. I don't want to make anybody feel like they have to hide their bad feelings from me so that I don't worry.

I get sad every time I think about my birthday.

Had a naughty dream in a dream that I was doing naughty things with this guy and then Brian woke me up in the dream doing naughty things and it was great.

Cleared the air today with an old friend I had a falling out with. I don't want to get close to her again because she has abusive and manipulative tendencies.

It's only when I start to actually feel good about things that I realize the slow burn of depression that seems to just taint everything I do.

It's amazing how much of a difference the right clothes can make when concerning your self confidence.

There's a guy at work that's super sweet and I have a major crush on him even though the only time I get to talk to him now is when I call to confirm that proof is finished.

Lately I feel really fragile.