HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

Just realized that the reason watching leo and stitch always puts me on edge is the parts with cps. Because I've gotten in serious trouble for getting cps called on mistake when I was around leo's age or younger.

People outside are loud. And everytime I hear a shift from my moms bed I panic. I think I just ruined my sleep schedule even more. Shiiit

I haven't slept in 20.5 hours. Ajd dmdmmemekejwmwmenwne

I reread my little work assignments we have from when I was 5-8 and I didn't realize just how bad my spelling was. Like 85% of all words were spelled incorrectly, some words were just missing, bs and ds were backwards, there was one word that was also backwards, and I didn't know how to spell my middle name..

Boy my therapist sure is nice, unfortunately she's not going to get the dlc pack for my trauma. How do you get the dlc pack you ask? By promising to never ever ever call law enforcement or cps without my explict permission. I would like to tell her about my secret trauma gut that also means I have to include the secret people in my brain.

Fuuuuuuuck.

My fucking shark week started

Big feelings equals big art.
I had wanted to test rim lighting and stuff.

Almost made an awful unlovable decision last night, but I didn't. And I'm happy I didn't. So emotional art because feelings but also. Please do check up on you friends from time to time and make it clear that they can talk to you about serious things if they need support. Sometimes they really need it and won't ask for help until the last minute, if at all.

Im so fucking tired of being alive.