I've been rambling, but being in this space right now with nothing else but my thoughts, being in this surreal, uncomfortable, uncertain space bathed in candles, ceaseless generator and fan noise and waiting patiently for the gasoline to run out and everything to shut off has me feeling a type of way

I've been thinking about how tied to my past some media is, and cowboy bebop keeps coming up since it's something I've watched quite literally since I was 4 years old
it's always been in a space between dreams and being awake, weirdly lucid and in a specific time and place for me
watching it sometimes feels like a connection with the past, which is funny...

I was talking about how lack of the third place for kids prevents them from being able to socialize in person broadly and found out I'm actually literally midwest emo
turns out before 2014 the place I live was considered the boonies or the middle of nowhere
go fucking figure

power's been out since 6am from beryl 😔 they're saying at best half of the people who lost power will get power back Wednesday night

guess who bought 200 dollars worth of dresses and clothes on clearance on sale from killstar

im hungry your plurk

oh it turns out when I spent 4 hours walking and talking on the phone I had heat exhaustion so I've been dealing with feeling like I baked in a hot tub for the past 3 days lmao

y'know I talked about Bayonetta and rich lesbian aunts but I finished Bayonetta 3 and I'm in shambles
WHAT FUCKING HAPPENED

I went on a walk for four hours today and had a heart to heart with my very very good friend on the phone in that time and I'm exhausted
and feel GOOD

it's crazy because me more I do a little more femme look here and a little more there it's insane just how well I wear it and look it and how becoming it is of me
I legit wanna do the secretary pencil skirt look REALLY badly now