on that note, I'm still feeling very annoyed and put out when I'm at a new place full of people and I just have absolutely no way of feeling comfortable with talking to anyone there but
baby steps and all that

I went to a friend's show who was headlining for a bunch of hardcore death metal bands and let me tell you I was totally out of my element
I got aquatinted with trashing and now it's actually real in my mind
but let me tell you, I have a lot of complex feelings

i feel like i'm bad at socializing mostly because i don't ever seem to have much to talk about strongly enough to Just Bring Stuff Up, i tend to ride out conversations instead
so oftentimes i just lurk because i don't have much to say
i guess part of why i relate to conveying feeling rather than speaking has always struck a chord with me most

doggie :3

is there such a thing as being hyper aggressively lesbian

feeling inundated from trying to do everything at once and also playing video games to bide my time while being broke and unable to act

the new porter single is just raking the coals across my back for wanting to make music even worse than it already has been
like GOD FUCK dude I just wanna know how to make songs reliably and quickly and FINISH something and make an album GOD

new porter robinson song and he's got a guitar and is dressed like the most insane version of himself I have ever seen
much to think about.