I've been so weepy and insecure the past few days. I'm not a fan of it.

so much has happened in the last 48 hours that I literally cannot process. The worst of it would need a trigger warning to talk about and I don't have the spoons for that.

Anybody here ever hear of statins causing mental side effects like paranoia and aggression? Its the only medication change my spouse has had lately but the side effects listed on the pharmacy sheet dont include anything like that.

Having one of those "my existence is pointless, there wouldn't even be any ripples if I vanished from the world" days. Don't need buttpats, just needed to say something.

I haven't really played 5e before and now I may get pulled into a rime of the frostmaiden group. I may need some help/advice, my typical pants bard characters are not going to cut it, it sounds like.

My mental state is all over the place. I really do apologize if I end up yaking anyone's ear off or just being generally weird and annoying. Between the health issues lately and being alone all the time its been hard to regain my mental balance.

Any time I see the phrase "self starter" under required skills for a project or job listing, I mentally replace it with "We will ignore the basic needs of this position and blame you if you don't get things done anyway"

Game franchises I randomly miss:
Wild Arms
Suikoden
Shadow Hearts
Arc the Lad

So I think I'm going to go back to my decision timer, where if I cant muster the energy to decide what to do with free time within 10 minutes I spin a preconfiguredWheel Decideand just do whatever it lands on.

current mood: knowing that I will be less depressed if I start playing a game, but not being able to muster the energy to start playing.