even better..living together and just filling the year with memories of us to look back on.. -K.T.

Imagine filling this place with photos of us every chance we get and seeing it at the end of the year..

Marking a new chapter in our story..

To new beginnings...to us..

maybe ill lose myself in the process and hope to be reborn as something new or someone else, i hope

i thought i mustered enough courage to end my life but i fear death just as much as i fear living another day being me. physical harm is the only thing i can do to atone for being me

Maybe all the pain from the bruises after the falls will slowly pile up and kill me

i couldnt get myself to fully commit to killing myself.. falling down from high areas but instantly rolling to the side right before the fall. I couldnt do it.

Im sorry for failing you.

I will take a while to erase me completely to even meet every aspect of you halfway. And I will go through that process if it means being accepted by you. I just want your forgiveness..