and now i've finished and i'm emotionally and physically exhausted and i don't know what to do with myself

this was such an amazing game and that CR i had throughout it i still feel like has the most depth, complexities, and heart out of anything or at least most of what i've rped. this game ruined me for other games, and even though i've been like 10 years since i've read anything from it, it still hits me hard.

and this all happened because i finally started thinking about rp a bit again after a shitty shit year but it was because i was thinking of other character in a show i recently watched and like, he's exactly my type of character

so i started musing more on it and then tony was like /KICKS DOOR IN

so he's there again i guess, he never left. asshole. i love him so much. T_T

but for the curious the char that was tickling my fancy is lord viren from netflix's the dragon prince

he's a dark mage with pragmatic reasoning that veers into villainy but he feels what he does is for thee good of humanity and his family and his history is really fucked up due to his own actions and thinking of "whatever it takes"

i recommend the show, it's a great watch if you like fantasy cartoons. the final season is airing in dec i believe.

but yes he and tony are very similar in some regards

assholes with beards who fiercely love their kids

and are subs

BUT back to original topic yes. i loved every bit in bete noire. it did teeter off for me near the end, as these things always do, but the vast majority was so very fulfilling and thank you for anyone left on my timeline who was a part of it.

Oh man. Bete Noire was the game. There was some kind of alchemy there. I totally agree.

I'm still so close, family, with people I met there

dog the way jim and tony's cr evolved over the years

and yeah i've def parred down my plurk friends but some people i met there i'm still in touch with

but also nice to feel during a reread, besides all those amazing things, is the feeling that like wow i could have written that tag so much better now lol. woo improvement

Tonyyyyyyy

(also I miss u hi)

same, nothing's been the same since BN

lies flat like a rug

corbiecore: hi i miss u 2 /squish

isadiya: /lies with

yea i gave up ever joining a game again after BN and i still honestly have no desire too. i don't feel any other game will live up to it. psls are still also v fulfilling for me though.

trying to be in a game, besides just not having the time/energy, feels like it'd be chasing after an unobtainable high.

but DAMN i do not regret that or feel bad about it because it was so amazing for me

i feel all of this

you are, ofc, a very very large part of what made it so epic

besides the obvious, while rereading, i rediscovered how awesome your thor was and how much of a bro he ended up being for tony

bawww

the eventual tyki/tony final throwdown i bawled over, both the 1v1 fight and the joyd battle later, and river gave me dad!tony before he ever a tickle in mcu canon's eye. i still cannot associate certain songs with anything but that CR/those scenes.

twinkle*

TONY AND RIVER

i also have saved all the meme threads i did over the years, so i think i'll go through those next

tony and river. i had NO idea how deep it'd grow with that first network post between them.

this will be cute and quirky, we said

not knowing

haha i said. kids and tony hanging out is one of my fav tropes in iron man things i said

i think i'd already seen firefly by that point, right?? i think i did yea

yup

he just wanted to help her so bad

look she was smart and young and she seemed to actually want to work and ada could only work part time anyway and whoops protective instinct for the young smart girl in a shitty shitty place

also lonely but hahahaha emotions

also someone to call him out when he needs it

yes where's that first convo, i wanna reread it now...

found it

lmao i forgot about the linefacing at the mindreading and i just reread his a weekish ago