[rp] i just spent the past week and a half feverishly rereading through all my old tony threads in bete noire because he roared to the forefront of my brain recently

brief update to friends on here: still surviving, somehow. experimenting with medications for depression/anxiety, seeing therapist, paying more attention to my physical health, and working to pay off debts. things are up and down, but i'm looking to be in a better place next year.

just dropping a note here that i am alive still and getting through. therapy is helping.

a stray kitten showed up at my mom's doorstep around the time miguel was getting really sick and my mom can't take care of her. she's bringing the kitten over tomorrow. i've been staying at a friend's house this week bc i couldn't stand being at my apartment alone.

miguel, my sweet baby boy, has passed away. i'm surrounded by people who care about me. i'm not okay, but i will be again, one day.

man, fuck 2024 so far. miguel pulled out his e-tube (on jan 1st!) and needed surgery to put it back in, my car needed major repairs, and yesterday i needed to rush to the ER for vomiting and retching that's lasted for like two weeks like srsly WTF 2024?

what if eps! also merry christmas

my baby boy is such a fighter. he's still in the hospital but he's getting better. diabetes? hepatic lipidosis from not eating because of a rubber toy he chewed up and ate and then needing major surgery? and then kidney failure on top of all that? he says, "not today."

miguel is back in the hospital. kidney failure now. trying aggressive treatments but that on top of everything else it's not good. vet estimated 30% he'll pull through which is better than 0% but

my baby's coming home today!!