ロクデナシ「愛が灯る」/ Rokudenashi - The Flame of Love【Officia...
#nowplaying . . . semacam kepikiran, Ai ga Tomoru itu Flashlight, tapi dalam bentuk past tense. cuma beda satunya api, satunya senter. /krik

suits me better these days. I guess.

in a dark place, how do you spark the light when the fire inside you is close to extinguished?

sparks are dying. embers are withering.

habis nonton Firefighter Daigo jadi fokus kalistenik/bodyweight training. habis nonton Bartender jadi iseng racik minuman sendiri buat buka puasa.

. . . anaknya rada gampang terpengaruh, ya. (aku)

today I looked back into the time machine. I was in my mid-late 20s. those were the plurks I wrote. those days weren't perfect, but they were happy days.

'but you can always make new happy days', the saying goes.

I wish, I really do. but not today, not the way things have been, no. but I wish.

BSOD in a do-nothing day. or maybe more like 'circuit break'-ing myself.

I'm just a little unwell, I guess.

tadi siang sempat pengen ngeplurk. sudah nulis, ketik-ketik-ketik... kemudian terbengkalai.

baru (bisa) buka plurk lagi jam segini. baiklah ga jadi. hedeh.

sampai rumah, sholat, makan, rasanya sudah terkuras macam sudah malam sekali . . . tapi ternyata baru jam 8. bagus juga begini, dalam beberapa hal.

sudah perlu tidur lebih awal sepertinya. mungkin hari ini aku rehat latihan dulu.

Jakarta mendung pagi ini. kelabu. dulu aku tak pernah relate merasa 'bunyi' dengan omongan 'warna seperti menghilang', tapi rasanya ya... begitu.

kemudian hari ini datang lagi. aku hanya perlu bertahan dan menyelesaikan hal-hal sampai maghrib nanti. mungkin aku cuma berharap hal-hal lebih mudah hari ini. soredakedeii.

for the first time in a long while (like 'years', basically), I feel kind of 'not bad' when I looked into the mirror today. still some way to go, some never-before personal goals, but good to see the training paying off, I guess.

to be 'the best I could be', eh.

then again, I'm not that special. and I'm just somebody, yeah.

it's not hard to let go when there is nothing to fight for to begin with.

I should know.