hear my plead God,,, please keep me focused... please

God keep me strong and focus... forgive me for being ungrateful,, lead me trough this hardship, good or bad I submit it to you

thousand friends won't suffice, but one enemy is too much.
I'm not looking for enemy, but I still figuring out what to do if others think I'm their enemy..

I'm grateful to still have awesome friends, who still remember and need my contribution (maybe not so great contribution), but I don't think its healthy to hold grudge by being indifferent. Maybe I wasn't honest too, but I'm trying to be still "accepted",

makes me wanna say: WHAT KIND OF FRIENDS IS THAT?

but of course I'll be looked down, not only because what I did, maybe also because having my own opinion..

so the clingy syndrome is still there... thanks for the heads up

not strong in resisting medication... strong in living through the illness till healthy again...

Dad's illness are like domino effect... please God make him strong, and more patient

thus, continuing to be "expert pretender", carry on then