Am I not worth loving at all?

I'm tired of feeling so lonely.

Ang bigat ng feeling now. I just wanna cry but I can't coz im at work.

I have no choice but to contain all these emotions.

I wonder when I would stop imagining myself in the arms of someone.

When will it become a reality?

Reading any love story makes my heart ache. </3

Ngayon ko lang narealize na inamin sakin ni ..... na madalas pinag uusapan nila ako ng cosplay team / circle of friends nya. I should've pressed him for more info!

Spending a night with someone I don't love feels so different now. Maybe I am done with those kinds of things already and prefers to take life seriously. That moment should've been great, however, without the spark or chemistry, it's just a soul-less interaction.

I'm not happy that it happened but I don't regret it either.

Namimiss ko padin yung dating tayo.

Spending the night with someone I don't love doesnt feel the same anymore. Because of him, I became cautious, scared & less likely to do things i used to do. I am thankful that he made me a girl I am always longing to be. I did not choose to feel this way. Everything came naturally. Because of him, I realized how greatly I was taken for granted by everyone.

Bitter Realization:

"Hindi ako yung babaeng ginigirlfriend."