sometimes i wonder, have i always just loved you too much and you just happened to take pity?

this time i've managed to feel alone, more than ever... just when i thought my heart wouldn't hurt any more than it has. </3

through my veins, indeed, runs your blood but also the poison i've infected myself with. i am not any more yours than i am any one else's. get a life, as i am currently trying to get one too, and eff off!

sometimes i want to blame Him up there for letting this happen. but then i know i can't point a finger to anyone else about the way i am. in the end i suffer the most all the same and it sucks. (

even though it appears okay, it freaking isn't and if you'd try, even the tiniest way possible, you'd freaking know. [you freaking piss me off like no other. eff u!]

start the year with a clean slate. look forward to everything that will come along this year. TRY, whenever possible, to move on, no matter how hard. [note to self]

give it a shot already! i'm telling you it's something you won't regret. ;p

and before you know it, it's over.

if only i didn't have kitchen duties, i'd sleep the holidays off and wake up before valentine's day. (the person i want to publicly say i love you is the only person i can't seem to)[indirect]

you can have moments of weakness at the beginning but remain strong and soon it'll be like breathing. because it'll do more wrong than good if you remain as is.[breathe again]