much as i greatly enjoyed the company that came after, there was something very serene about being alone at an almost empty place. a feeling i can barely remember ever having.[don't just fall for that easily]

some day..and this time stay strong...[for the love of your self]

i hate it how i can't even take a break. that in times i try to raise my head up, i end up taking another blow.

there's more than enough force to drive off the edge, only to be held back by darnest thing. Tsk.

it's almost like i have MPD...

everyday i grow weary yet that freaking feeling just won't go away. go ahead and drain all the life force out of me. </3

no to hesitationd and yes to audacity. [you've only got life to lose]

it sucks to be so lame. [never ending torture/turning masochistic]

slipping back. missing any sense of control.[that feeling]

and the waterworks keep on coming.don't you ever get tired?? [pathetic]