high school best friend (no longer on speaking terms because she is a republican now) got married today. feeling like shit that im in a position that is no better than i was in 10 years ago. lmao.

figured some shit out yesterday. going to quit my job this summer, give myself a little vacation, and then go back to school and refocus on art. my tax return should give me a bit of savings to fall back on, plus will give me time to work out my medical stuff, like getting my spiro prescription refilled and getting back on psychiatric meds.

managers are complaining to eachother that too many people requested Passover and Easter off. sorry ladies but some of us.... Have lives....

work won't give me my anniversary off im gonna piss.

like it's fine i just want everything to be perfect y'know

heart feels full (positive)

UPDATE: I GOT MY PERIOD IM NOW IN HELL. emotionally im doing great but every component of my physiology is demanding i suffer

today i somehow felt lighter, more normal than ih ave in a long time. it is probably the start of a manic episode or something but it was nice. i was walking my dog, and i was looking Up for once instead of at my feet

twisted my ankle while walking the dog and ended up pulling a muscle in my groin, if you're wondering how my week could get worse