the substane is alright, where i am rn, i relate ofs, grief over loss youth, the inappropriateness of sucking the energy of youth, psychologically spot on. the carrie ending, the shining corridors, dennis quaid giving mugatu, a bit tired, but its alright. 5/10

ada ya org udh berkali2 dimintain bantuin cuci baju keluarga malesnya minta ampun, akhirnya gue keteteran, anak berangkat sekolah seragamnya masih setengah basah, kasian amat huhu, pas diingetin tolong dong bantuin gue nyuci baju, paling nggak lipetin deh, eh masih ngeles: "we need to involve [nama anak] to do house chores too. we have so many". EDAN SIH

org kok cuma diem, partnernya udh panik marah2 sedih, tetep diem. malah jd ga enak sendiri dia kenapa ya? fucking hell so lonely

jangan jd org yg terlalu reliable, tar too many people rely on u to do everything and sooner or later you'll break

i like beberes rumah, but having a partner yg malesnya minta ampun (sehingga juga naudzubillah incompetentnya, hidup kayak anak kosan pdhl udh 40 tahun ke atas) ternyata bikin resentment/sense of isolation yg mengganggu kenikmatan beberes rumah tersebut. hrs dgn sadar mengingatkan diri bahwa if i really do enjoy this, then let's do it w/ a smile on our face

sedih jg kl dipikir2 ya i know ga usah dipikirin sbnrny, tp ive noticed kl pinjem2an uang sesama yg (relatively) misqueen ada unspoken understanding ya udh relain aja kmgkn besar duit lo ga bakal balik, tar kl gantian perlu yg dl ngutang kl lg pny duit pasti gantian ngutangin; tp kl minjem sm yg tajir e buset terminnya udh kyk minjem sama bank aja wk

nah kalo beli gofood aja males ngeluarin makanannya dari kantong plastik mending lo buruan kabur jauh2 dah

bibit bebet bobot. who cares. tu org bisa ga nyuci piring, nyuci baju, nyapu, ngepel, beresin kamar, wipe their own ass kalau lagi ga ada pembokat? kalau iya langsung kawinin dah

kok ada ya org yg ngomong pake cliche phrases trus ga cringe sendiri? "suara hati perlu ekspresi" wtf dumb

this deepseated loneliness. "seated" doesnt sound right. more like ensconsed, immovable, permanent, a massive black hole barely contained within your body.