I m sick of my life now. Not the work, but my personal living. I am a fuck'in dirty shit. I am living my life like shit.

Why cant i have more time? Why cant i have more energy? Why cant i be stronger? Why cant i be more determine?

I am really sick of this, i wanna change but where to start? And, how long can i persevere? What can it drive me thru?

This is killing me. I really think life is hard. And i am really sick of the stage tht i'm at now.

How worse can this be?

Why do i always pity of myself? I feel like i deserve everything better which is actually hurting myself more! When will i get out of this?

What's wrong with me?

I always feel like i follow what my body says more than what it follows mine. M i nuts?

I m the biggest enemy of my own.

Sometimes, i feel dirty as if the floor suits me more for a lying place. When will i get up and fight against myself?