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On US independence day night, we met we talk silly about our feelings and serious about our past then in front of my house without a plan he asked me to be the one then after some thinking (i think like weeks before) i said NO wkwkwk jk.
Now we 2 weeks old and happy

Then go to first night call, then get closer and talk stupid about the future, and without me knowing we act like a couple.. he ask if it's okay to drop out girl friend pdhl idc wkwk
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i mean i ask is he want to be serious or not (this is after first date) i think at first he scared or doesn't want to be serious then i smpt blg mo deket 1 ato 2 thn dulu but i got labil, so as time goes by he always be the first to initiate serious future talk that make me scared wkwk
Then we got closer and closer...

July: we get together (me and the young man)
Well... it's a funny story that i never thought I'll experience.....
So at first he pdkt kinda like normal person and then ai make first "brave stupid" step which is kodein about seriousity wkwk
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Feb: im telling some people im single
When i go to my first gp jatipon worship that's my first share to jatipon about my singleness
and thennn this young men gerceply WA mee and pedekateh
Sempet labil karna rokok but then God showed me that some nonrokok guy have bad real attitude
So on so on and BAM
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AND THEN i feel guilty for php to other girl's boyfriend & thank God it stopped
On jan: the jendes still trying to get close to me but after made up some excuses he finally stop
My ex stop hiding me from his statuses and i try to move on
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Soooooooooooo lets recap
On dec: i galau as hell thank God i also busy as hell,
close to xmas i officially broke up and later on i got close to janda wkwkwkwkwkwkwkwk but everytime he ask me to go out aidonwan bcs i know he's a player
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Supppppp its been 6 months since we met i missed you sooo baddd

So... yeah on 19th oct something happened and he wants us to end maybe but i stick to my principle that we'll really end in Dec if he's not getting serious. So yeah.. its sad, confusing and i passed that lebay moment #ThankGod ... Gbus