FOR FUCK SAKE! WHY WAS I EVEN BORN IN THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT FAMILY!

why is life so freaking horrible to me. i just want to disappear and live peacefully forever. please! i just want to die peacefully.

TO DIE!!!!!!!!!

giving up. I really hate it when the dance is combined with other areas. Makes me STRESS and STAB MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

freaking fucking stressing out!!! Hate participating for this eurocon!! I just want to go to the eurocon and not participate w/ competition

ALWAYS FUCKING FIGHTING!!!!!!! ALWAYS FUCKING PUTTING A FAKE FUCKING SMILE AROUND FUCKING PEOPLE!!!!!!!!

HAVE TO CANCEL IT BECAUSE THEM!!!!!!

I SERIOUSLY FUCKING HATE MY PARENTS!!!!!! I REALLY HOPE I'M ADOPTED SO I WON'T HAVE TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THEM!!!!!

didn't get to exercise today :/ oh well.. work harder tomorrow

is catching up on a lot of tv series