he said i constantly underestimated him, but the truth was, i never did. i joke about it just to have more interaction, the truth was, i admire him. but i just have trouble to be true to him or even me.
maybe i should never denied my jealousy, my likeness, and just be true to my feeling all along. what's to lose anyway? i can handle a bit of shyness and being tease. can't i?