Plurk, it seems like nobody’s care enough in my eyes. I have my friends but still feeling the emptiness in my heart. Nothing warms my heart anymore, it’s a deadass organ now.

this is hard.

[UPDATE]
jadi akhirnya aku confess lah ke orang yang aku taksir ini.. udah bikin paragraf berhari-hari.. akhirnya aku send deh ke dia, cuma direspon "wahh bagus kata-katanya hehhe" dan yang lebih parah dia gatau dong kalo itu adalah confession text :')))) malah dikira itu text perpisahan

he always responds to my text, that is confusing. If he doesn't even like me, why bother to respond to my text? I would rather understand if he tells me to fuck off than to response all of my text but don't have any possibility to move forward

I think the reason why he's so kind to me because of my recent condition (that I wouldn't tell what).

tapi semakin kesini, my feelings toward him have been developed tapi kebalikannya semakin kesini kok aku semakin merasa that he build this type of barrier so that I couldn't cross the line.

from the way, he sees the world to the way he thinks its so new to me, and he made me mesmerized with it.

jujur awalnya itu gak ada pikiran sampe kesitu, he such a nice guy and different from any other man I've known.

sooo... I have this 'thing' with a guy I met online..

terakhir ngeplurk 5 tahun yang lalu... masih MTs... jujur jijik baca plurk yg dulu