gonna sleep early so i wont think about him

arguing with myself.nice

cuddle. wtf is wrong with me...he's just so warm k

its weird how mean i am.i like being 'sweet' to E cause he shows his.. affection. but B? i feel like im throwing myself to him and all i get is a daily hug. i miss cuddles

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

like now.hmm maybe im a disturbance..am i a bore?

i wish. he would stop torturing me with his adorable smile, his happy laugh when i say something stupid, the way he goes too close to my face.the way he hugs me tight when i leave.hurts.

he's not gonna ask.he's gonna see how crazy and annoying i am and leave me.my heart is gonna be broken and ill never have another guy like me the way he does because ill be a monster.i am a monster

wonder if he knows i get irritated when i dont get attention.wtf is wrong with me. why do i think about him so much.i imagine us ,does he? seriously am i obsessed. i have to stop this.