very wild that the cycle of
i'm afraid of drinking -> wait drinking is kinda sick -> drinking makes me tummy hurt maybe i'll stop doing it

has inadvertently led me to being the designated "straight edge dood" in my friend group once again and it has felt just as weird as it did when i was like 18 lol

the existential dread of seeing your mom's friend who is at the absolute end of her rope

that feeling of overwhelming relief when you find out your mom doesnt have kidney cancer

FOMO in the era of COVID is all of your friends talking about FFXIV

just used rogaine for the first time and its truly the first moment where i've felt humiliatingly old

"You have to live your life at some point" they say, as they have 6 people over

Starting to realize that I am slowly falling into the role of "friend from hometown with an obvious shelf life" and at this point I might as well fulfill it.

Very happy to be starting therapy again. My steep mental and cognitive decline has really become so apparent to me and I just need to get some kind of fucking grounding back.

the quarantine fugue state has really been at its peak for me lately huh

you ever just think about caddyshack