when can i find a good job that can improve my salary and abilities to handle everything smoothly?

when can i control anything easily?

who can help me ,who can teach me how to solve my problems

i want to find a person who can help me ,but i don't konw who i can find

i'm almost crazy,i can't control my emotion

i don't konw the things i did for everyone was for myself or for them.

it is hard to find some materials in English

我有时候会想，什么时候能有个男人帮我完成从一个对什么事情都懵懵懂懂的小女人到一个做任何事都面面俱到的perfect woman，不过这似乎是一个难以完成的project

today is the first day after the Christmas,Li said if he was here ,he would't let me alone yesterday,i don't konw if he likes me.

today is Christmas Day,no gift ,no invitation,lonely!