Im too afraid to see his tweets. Im too aftaid to see the truth.

everyone is getting better but me?

Dreaming about death and think about it makes me feel… numb(?)
As I look at the blue sky tonight, I wonder, is this my turn? Am I ready yet?

Bangun pagi bagus, packing saat org lain tidur juga terserah, tp jgn berisik (pack&unpack pake plastik kresek) dlm waktu lama dong 😭

Berisik, aku nggak suka teman sekamar yg berisik

Firstly I admit that I miss them, I told them what I feel. Validation really helps. I tried to navigate my feelings -my energy-, to give the feeling some rest and move my focus to other things I (used to) enjoy. Reading & writing.

Better. I feel better after finishing something. Sense of achievement?

Just a few minutes ago, I saw a friend's post captioned,

"Everything will be okay again,
And you will feel like you again"

How to be present and enjoy things around?

I can't wait to sleep again and can't wait until its time to go home