What scares me is not knowing when I face death. What scares me the most is this.

And now your friend hates you, because you unknowingly became someone who you are not. Someone who she despise.

So that you can leave this world seeing her smile one last time. But things didn't turn out as you were expecting it to be.

What would you do, if you were about to die. But you're trying your best to leave the best impression of yourself for your best friend.

Probably no one would know how it feels to leave like this.

Leaving everything alone. Would probably be a good decision.

That being sad. And knowing you well enough. I guess I'm on the verge of losing everything.

I guess that's all history to you. I doesn't matter who I was before. What matters is now.

But it's not like nagging and whining will change anything.

You don't even want to talk to me anymore. You're only making an effort in not talking to me