I'm feeling very tired and discouraged and anxious. It's not okay to be constantly trying to survive. It's not okay for people to just decide I don't deserve to work because they're pissed I got sick one day. I'm so fucking tired. I need to do things and I can barely breathe right now.
Would it be okay to share a wish list from Amazon for things like toothpaste and laundry soap? I haven't had the money to buy stuff and they're cutting my hours so it's going to get worse before I can find another job and get another paycheck.
They cut my hours, won't take off points that are not my fault, and are punishing me for being sick on an inventory day. All when I'm about to lose everything.
I need a shower, a second job, and to find my way back to enjoying writing and chatting with friends. I also need to clean my room. And cut knots off my soot sprite cat, Baboo.
Took today off for mental health and self care and job hunting. Slept around 11 hours, repotted some plants, made food, played Minecraft. Going to apply to a fast food place for extra money to pay down bills.
Just have to survive tomorrow then two more days off. Trying to get moms car fixed. Send good vibes and cute/nice things please?
I finally got my first keffiyeh. I saved and waited for a sale so I could afford one. I'm sitting in my car crying because it's been a really bad day and I needed this little piece of Palestine.