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1 years ago
phone calls with my mother are always...something. Just learned about a traumatic thing from middle school that I apparently blacked out entirely? Like even listening to her talk about it I fundamentally do not recall the events she describes despite remembering most of that year fairly well.
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1 years ago
I'm like stuck in a processing state, lol.
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1 years ago
and it was so matter of fact too, I brought up some medical stuff I have going on that we're trying to figure out and shes just like "Oh did you tell them about X" and I'm like... what are you talking about?
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1 years ago
the fact that this happened almost bothers me less than that I can't remember anything about it or even the recovery period from it.
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1 years ago
also learning that my bullying was FAR more serious than I thought it was. thats new information to process.
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1 years ago
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1 years ago
its so fucking disturbing to have a huge black hole in your memory for something big and you dont even realize its there until One Day
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1 years ago
its so weird because my brain is just like pushing back so hard against it. Its like, maybe she's confused, that can't have happened, surely I'd remember something.
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