sometimes, i got jealous to them who have a complete family. having a dads, moms, brother/sisters. it would be fun if the house is full of people. watching a movie together or just having a little talk in the middle of night. seeing someone story with their family makes me asking myself "when i can feel those things?" or " can i feel those things?"
maybe its sound overacting, but someone like me would really appreciate the existence of a family. i know, family is not always perfect, there is a lot of emotion, happy, anger, sadness, but nothing perfect right.
sometimes we having a fight with another family member, it thats normal. but, when u're down, when the whole world hate u, u still have all of your family to give u support.
but i can feel it. just a simple things, i got sick my mom would throw me anything just to make me wake and cook something to eat. HAHAHAHAH
she always wanted me to love her, but she never show me a love.
sometimes, i wanted her just to die. i know its wrong. but its better if live alone
its better if everyone leave me.