like part of me actually enjoys that but i also feel mad irresponsible but also I FEEL IRRESPONSIBLE FOR NOT BEING ON SOCIAL MEDIA????????? is this gaslighting????????? myself???????????

No I’m dealing with this too especially hearing about my friends lives. I don’t think you need to be on social media but if it’s your singular source for all of this different information it’s going to feel neglectful if you’re not on it