already took some propranolol so at least my anxiety is down

but hearing that my counseling appointment is being put off again really... is...

idk

it's hitting me way harder than I thought it would.

I think it's felt like I've been holding my breath for a couple weeks and I was looking forward to being able to stop

I've been okay. and I think the effort of keeping that up until I can get to a counselor has secretly been really exhausting.

so hearing that I need to wait more is.... seriously disheartening

I have such a problem with cisguys, especially when it comes to counselors

since my dad was one

but I might just try and deal with it anyway in order to get the closer appointment. idk.

that's super not cool ;;

D:

I'm so sorry, hon.