I understand your reluctance to see the doctor when you feel like that all too well. There are times when I know I should see one, but because of how I feel, I won't.

If/When you get a hoist, it will be a such a life change for you and John, especially in conjunction with your new bed. It took us years to get hoists fitted and hospital bed for KT and my health suffered

immensely whilst we were waiting. I was at the very brink of no longer being able to cope with lifting him and cleaning him, but they made things so much easier. Unfortunately, my good health has still to make

a comeback - I'm wobbly, constantly in pain, can't lift things now, have no grip... a lot of my problems are as a result of years of caring for KT alone. It's good that you guys are getting help before it goes

too far for John.

Johan has already been in hospital once because caring is too much for him. Paid care workers won't lift me so they have no choice really.

It sucks that your health has been so badly affected. They only seem to help if it reaches crisis point when they should be preventing it from getting that far. Squishes

I hope you get your hoist. It will make things far easier for you both.