and i actually DO have goals for 2013

that i would like to accomplish

i didnt really had any last year because last year was just a complete "UP IN THE AIR" year for me

never knew what was going to happen to me or anything in my life

but now that those things have passed

i can actually do some goals

1. gallbladder removal!!!! - this is def. happening, of course. gonna try and get it remove as soon as possible. but i think it'll be around april.

cause in april, my brother gets a..5,000 bonus or something for the air force? i cant remember. something huge like that.

and he's gonna use some of his bonus on me to get my surgery

so when THAT happens

2. LOSE WEIGHT - but this kinda varies. it depends how much weigh i lose from my gallbladder surgery.

*weight

if i lose a good bit and im satisfied with my size, then i probably wont work extra hard

but if i feel i could lose more, then i'll definitely work out

i dont have to worry about needing to eat right because after my surgery i can't really go back to burgers and all of that.

but yes, number 2 is: get into a comfortable size for me

3. TRY AND GET MY COLLEGE/SCHOOLING SITUATION STRAIGHT OUT - i.....really need to do this.

*straighten

it's gonna be REALLY complicated, i know. but... i cant keep pushing it off. if i dont do it, i wont go anywhere

4. NEW JOB????? i dont know if i should start looking for a new job next month or keep... this one.

once more money starts coming in, i wouldn't need to give up my checks to my mom and i can just keep them. HOWEVER -- if im doing a lot of travels this year - i can't really keep my job.

or i can do what joanna does, make some kind of agreement where i can still have the job just... work once every few months or something. idk.

cause im sure my brother will give me spending money if i really need it but it would be more rewarding if i save up and work at it, you know?

i dunno. guess we'll see how this year goes.

5. RP BETTER??? - i've been falling out of roleplay for several months. and i do want to do better. though idk either. sometimes i get the "maybe its time to throw in the towel" feeling with roleplaying

6. WRITING/READING??? - so back in middle school, i used to do this goal. where from beginning of the school year all the way till christmas vacation

to write and complete a story

it was a silly little goal but it was tons of fun and i did it throughout the whole middle school year. i tried to do it in high school but.... HIGH SCHOOL.

and i kinda miss doing that.

so next year, since i have a feeling 2013 may be smoother for me - im gonna pick that up

and i want to get back on reading too. maybe go back to the library and check out books again. i THINK i have a library fine - but if im keeping my checks now

i'll just pay it off

7. SAVE UP MONEY/TRAVEL!!!!!!!!!!! - SELF-EXPLANATORY. I'M DOING THIS DAMNIT. NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP ME. I'M MAKING THIS HAPPEN!!!!!

and that's it.

and now i return back to reading

i need to do tags too but i wanna read a bit