Wy Delprat hates
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everything.
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Matthew
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doesn't think it's possible for you to hate everything.
Wy Delprat
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specifically hates Australia most of all.
Matthew is
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concerned. "Why? What happened?"
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Wy Delprat
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"I told him I wanted to be homeschooled and he just laughed at me..."
Matthew thinks
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it over a minute or so before replying. "Well, you don't have to be homeschooled by him. Maybe you could find a tutor?"
Wy Delprat
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"But, the whole point is not to go to school anymore..."
Matthew
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shakes his head, "Well, you don't have to go to school if you get a private tutor. It'd be like homeschooling, except instead of Australia
Matthew
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teaching you someone else would."
Wy Delprat
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begins to tear up. "He wont listen to anything I say. If I even start to talk about being homeschooled he just rolls his eyes."
Matthew wants
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to comfort her, but doesn't really know how. "I'm sorry? Maybe he'll come around?"
Wy Delprat
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rubs her eyes angrily (at herself as much as Australia). "No, he won't ever listen he hates me anyway...I don't know what to do...
Wy Delprat
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I feel so trapped... everyone hates me at school. I have no friends except Sealand and he only hangs out with Latvia now, and I just don't
Wy Delprat
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know what to do anymore... sometimes I wish I was dead...
Wy Delprat
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* "
Matthew
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frowns. "I-I doubt they hate you... Why would they ever have a reason to?" He gives her a hug that he hopes is more consoling than awkward
Wy Delprat
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"But, they do... these three girls cornered me in the bathroom at lunch today and kept kicking me and hitting me... look!" She lifts her
Wy Delprat
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shirt slightly to reveal an array of bruises. "And, no one will talk to me. They all call me 'eyebrows'..."
Matthew
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winces at the bruises. He really doesn't know what to say or do now. "Have you talked to a teacher about this...? A-and you at least have
Matthew
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a friend in Sealand right? Even if he hangs out with Latvia a lot. He doesn't call you 'eyebrows' does he?" And he was supposed to be good
Matthew
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at giving adivce...
Wy Delprat is
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beyond normal advice. Her last dozen diary entries have been suicide plans. "I can't talk to anyone... really especially teachers...
Wy Delprat
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they hate me too, even they call me 'eyebrows'. Did you know, some of the kids actually followed me home the other day, and they were
Wy Delprat
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yelling at my back the whole time, and throwing things... what did I ever do to them?"
Matthew
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can't think of anything else to say that will actually do anything. "I... You can talk to me." He says helpfully. "And have you tried
Matthew
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to talk to Australia about the bullying? Even if he doesn't like you... He... He can't just sit here and let people beat up on you like this
Matthew
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." Though, he knows first-hand just how much people will ignore before they try to help...
Wy Delprat
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"I tried... he says I'm exaggerating. Whenever I tell him anything he says I'm being melodramatic... no, he wont do anything for me."
Matthew
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looks even more concerned. "Did you show him the bruises?"
Wy Delprat
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"I did... he said I probably made them myself. He-he doesn't believe anything I say, ever."
Matthew
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knows a similar feeling. " I wish I could do something to help." He says a little bit shyly.
Wy Delprat
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"I'd rather die than go back to school now... I ran away once, and when Australia found me he hit me... so I can't do that again."
Matthew
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stares at her. It's as if nothing he says is doing anything. He supposes he should just... Listen. "Oh. Maybe you could get one of the less
Matthew
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busy nations to homeschool you? It doesn't have to be Australia..." He should just give up.
Wy Delprat
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Her mind drifts back to a picture she's been imagining a lot of lately https://images.plurk.com/a98b6900b9a00f3e1bd74e528f1d64f0.jpg
Wy Delprat
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she hears what Matthew says as if from a distance. That ball of dread twisting in her stomach. "I'll do it then..." She says to herself.
Matthew feels
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as though she's ignoring him... What a familiar and terrible feeling. "A-at least know some people care about you! Please?"
Wy Delprat
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faints.
Matthew was
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certainly not expecting her to just faint. He has no idea what to do. Should he call 911? Freak out? No, no, not freak out. He goes with
Matthew
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picking her up off of the floor and... Where to now? A store? Oh God. This is not good. Not good at all.
Wy Delprat
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Her eyes flutter, half closed for a moment before she awakens a bit. "What? Where are we?"
Matthew
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looks down at her, having decided to go to his house after his little series of mini-crises. "You're at my house. You sort of... Fainted."
Wy Delprat
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"Oh..." She isn't surprised. She hasn't eaten for days.
Matthew
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"Mm-hmm... Well, I made mac and cheese- would you like some?" He gestures to his rather humble dinner sitting on the table. Of course he
Matthew
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made enough for two. If she was going to be over at his house, the least he could do is feed her.
Wy Delprat
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Her eyes turn to glass. "Th-thanks, but I've already eaten."
Matthew
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blinks. "Are you sure? I-I insist. Not to mention, it's not that filling..." He won't push her too far, but really, she looks like she
Matthew
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hasn't eaten in a long time. He can't just let her not eat.
Wy Delprat
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winces. "Okay then... I'm really not hungry though..." She wolfs it down nonetheless, but immediately afterward begins to feel sick as
Wy Delprat
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you do if you eat after you've been starving yourself for a long time.
Matthew is
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very happy that she eats and is a bit surprised to see her eat with unexpected desperateness. "Thank you." He says, then adds, "Er... For
Matthew
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eating it that is... You look like you needed it..."
Wy Delprat
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smiles a bit. "Thanks for saying so...and thanks." She closes her eyes and presses her face against the table, loving the coolness of it
Wy Delprat
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she was 33.7 kilos when she last checked. She's afraid of what she'll find when she checks now. She feels so ugly and pathetic she wants to
Wy Delprat
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cry. She bites her lip to keep from making any sound.
Matthew
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goes over to Wy, noticing the distraught look on her face. "Wy? What's wrong?" He sits down next to her. "You look like you're about to cry
Matthew
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. Did the mac and cheese taste really bad or something?"
Wy Delprat
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"N-no. It was fine. I just. Nevermind."
Matthew
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"You just what?"
Wy Delprat
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can't just say she hasn't been eating, can she. She's terrified of being found out but feels guilty keeping it from Matthew.
Matthew feels
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the atmosphere get a bit too tense. "Well, you... You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." He stands.
Wy Delprat feels
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incredibly guilty because he has been so kind to her. She grabs his wrist. "No! Wait-- I'll tell you."
Matthew
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can't deny he wants to know. He sits back down. "Really? Well then.. Eh... What is it?"
Wy Delprat
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"I think... I have a problem."
Matthew
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nods again. "A problem? What kind of problem?"
Wy Delprat
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"I- I hurt myself sometimes... and I don't eat."
Matthew
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bites his lower lip. Self-harm hits a little close to home. "What do you mean by hurting yourself? And... Why not?"
Wy Delprat
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"I... well, it started with just a little cutting and burning on the wrists, and then it got out of control.. and same with the not eating
Wy Delprat
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and I just don't even know how to stop." She pulls up her sleeve revealing a bony scar-covered mass of cuts old and new.
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