like. this is the opposite of what I want

I am also just really feeling like hot soggy garbage after finishing the ritalin test last week

just. ugh. if this is what happens as soon as I am not taking drugs then no thank you

I gotta talk to my psych about it I guess but the uptick in anxiety is not something I'm really comfortable dealing with right now

I got enough shit on my plate

omg I hope you get it worked out soon, that sounds awful

Euuuggghhhh

ough ugh I know what you mean. I can talk about what I do that helps, if you'd like.

officialbizness: that would be helpful! I wound up on the couch just to avoid the trigger

I hope you can get some good rest

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does yoru fitbit think you're working out at 3am too

not so much since it was mostly like. sweaty palms and such and my heart rate didn't go too high

i did remember that i have some ativan from years ago so i popped one and we'll see if it helps out tonight

good luck

All righty, listing some ideas. I don't do all of these every time, and sometimes one will work better than the others. Most of what I use is CBT stuff.

- A mug of hot water. The heat and the clean taste and the warmth in my belly, it helps ground me.
- Repeating a mantra when the intrusive thoughts start to race. "At this time, in this place, and until morning, I am safe." I list the reasons why I'm safe, too.

- Nudity. My pajamas start to chafe for zero reason and my solution is WELL THEN NO PAJAMAS.

- YouTube in the background, preferably a Let's Play by a chill streamer. RTGames is my go-to, his videos are long and not full of screaming.

- Writing the intrusive thoughts down helps to make my brain feel heard and validated. When I type it all out, it's like the thought is pulled from me, and I can lay back down (until a new thought pops in).

- It feels like it should be bullshit, but listing something I can sense with all five senses does help as a calming measure. I've gotta work hard to ground myself, really experience what I'm feeling. This should take close to three minutes.
- "Resetting" breaths. They use this exercise in theater and YouTube should have a video of it.

my VO coach has been working with me on reset breathing, lol. I was definitely using that but it's good to have other tactics in the toolbox