I'm so sorry . _.)

i may eat an expired apple or perhaps many coffee grounds (/j, i need to go to therapy tomorrow so i can't give myself the plague)

you know i sometimes think "eh other people have it worse my parents are fine" and then something like this occurs and i realize that for all of my big breakdowns, my family has not been there for any of them
my parents still think im with lane and i may avoid telling them out of spite

how about instead of doing stuff to yourself that will make you more miserable you do something very kind for yourself or eat something you really enjoy so that you can ensure that somebody is treating you with the kindness you deserve during a really tough time in your life? /nf

okay but real talk other ppl having it worse does not make your situation any less bad
my d/d was more heavily abused than I was, he had it worse and yet he still gave me a trauma disorder
two things can be true at the same time

hhhngh good idea thank you. i will also maybe get my therapist to help me assign prices to neighborhood gigs i can do for the remainder of the time i live here (was gonna ask my m/m but she lost slash willingly gave up her helping-me privileges, and my d/d's out of town)
yeah they can but i was never locked in the bathroom for three days like you so i was

mainly thinking of you and not. like. parents

oh yeah! that could be really helpful, before I moved out I would pet-sit for my neighbors and mow their lawns sometimes, that's how I got enough money for my first laptop so ik that could be a great resource for you

uh
okay um
maybe you didn't have that specific thing happen to you however that doesn't mean your situation is necessarily better than mine or that your trauma is any less valid

I didn't mean for telling you that to make you feel like your parents are fine in comparison

yeah i got $200 for pet sitting one time but that might've been bribe money
no no i'm glad you told me, i just already invalidate my own c-ptsd a lot haha. i am working on it tho

i'm glad you tell me things like that. i'm sorry if I upset you & my issues are my own. i prefer to be trusted with that stuff and i can be trusted with it

200???? hot diggity your market is so much better than mine was, I never got more than eighty
and no you didn't upset me I just had a very conflicted feeling for a second there but I do trust you 💜 /gen

well they were neglecting their dogs and i didn't know how to get them arrested for it but i think they knew that i knew and that i wanted them to get arrested so they tipped me an extra seventy.
oh good thank you i was post-tiny-breakdown and was not careful with my words

oh goodness :0 blackmail then
are the dogs okay now?
and ofc, I understand, I've been there

Eden is absolutely right,and you should absolutely keep working on not invalidating your trauma anymore...we can reassure you when you need it

and I'm so proud of you for noticing the dogs didn't receive the love and care they needed

idk, we adopted one of them (Leo) but the other is still with those people
& thank you Lake, that means a lot
also their offer for the house got rejected so we may not be moving??

yo????? hope????? omc?????? that's great news!!!!!!

it is!!! my parents may make another offer but Maybe Not?? had to work very hard to look solemn & reserved when i heard that haha

I really hope this actually works and you don't move!!