for some reason this morning I've been thinking about last year when Mara got jumped by everyone's favorite vampire and Leon worried she got bit and was going to turn

sigh. such a good thread

sidebar : I need to actual have a vampire thread this October. past two years live has kept me from spooky monster fun /pout

less fun sidebar: second day in a row with a headache is no bueno. at least it's not a migraine. yet

aaand fuck, forgot Episode 2 starts next week for Destiny

I really fell far off that horse this time. but I blame how heavy I was playing the week before TFS and the week of launch, and then all the Life Bullshit that has just continued to pile up

either way, goddamn it I need to like. play in the middle of the night or something so near-zero chance of being interrupted so I can finally finally finish TFS, and then start tackling Ep 1 story

sigh

too many things I want to do this week. and I'm sure a curveball will show up at some point

aside from this work project that's going to keep me busy tomorrow and possibly friday

and yay, spending the end of my lunch break putting a credit freeze on my acct because my SSN was in one of the latest breaches 😖

gotta love all the places that have our info and we just have to hope they don't get hacked or have a bad actor. which totally never happens /eyeroll

lol probably just overshared a little to my supervisor but eh, I've already had to text her once about an ER trip, and it wasn't anything I haven't told my manager

and honestly it's probably good that both of my direct management know that yes unfortunately I am living with someone terminal who has been in the ER three times in the past 45ish days and who is just barely above qualifying for hospice. because that shit 100% affects me and my ability to work

I don't like work people knowing so much of what I'm dealing with at home but. that ship sailed a while ago

and considering this morning as I was getting ready for work I was thinking about boxes I should go through to see if there's stuff I could get rid of and not move yet again, and what kind of house we'll probably look for after this one...

the other day my sister was all, "once this is over you and mom should take a vacation" and I didn't say anything but I wanted to reply how that's the last thing I want right after he dies

what I want? is some fucking peace and quiet and only needing to worry about myself for a few days

I don't want to go anywhere. I want this space to myself for more than a couple hours while they're at appts or the store

I'll take a vacation when I have money next year maybe

anyway. reluctantly back to work while I have the very adult lunch of dino chicken nuggets and try not to think about the thread I want to pounce on

... though I will say it did actually feel kinda good to say out loud to someone, yes, I unfortunately live with someone terminal and someone else with spinal fusions, one of which is failing, so I end up having to help with a lot of basic things and sometimes get woken at 1am to drive them to the hospital

felt like this nonsense was acknowledged

and that I'm not crazy for feeling as mentally and emotionally exhausted as I do sometimes

you're definitely not crazy for feeling that way, and dino chicken nuggets are a legitimate adult lunch option.

idk what it is about shaped nuggets seeming to taste better than regular ones

I'm sure it's purely psychological

I have some shark-shaped fish sticks in the freezer too :x need to get around to borrowing the oven to make those before they get too freezer burned

but it's the time of year they're - or I should say, my mom - is doing a lot of canning as she harvests stuff from the garden, so there's not much clear space in the kitchen for me to do anything (not that there normally is, but it's worse when there's jars and pots and tomatoes everywhere lol)

at least this year she only planted maybe half the amount of tomatoes they did last year, considering this time last year he was in the hospital for weeks and most of the tomatoes ended up going bad because she didn't have the time or energy to deal with them after spending day after day at the hospital with him

/rambles

really wish it was friday already

I feel like I blinked and suddenly it's dark and after 7 -.-