Financially things went from bad to worse. And unless a miracle happens on the 2nd/3rd for something to be latter explained, or [redacted] helps out [maybe to mention later, but IDK this is public so maybe not], then we're really fvcked this month and I'm terrified.
I don't have it in me to elaborate. It's just month after month after month and things getting progressively worse.
Including no one hiring my mom, our electric bill AND internet bill (which is the cheapest available, and ironically best speed due to some things that happened last year and worked out in one hand, but then didn't work out in another, but is freakin' expensive) will be doubled at this rate b/c neither has been paid in 8 & 4 days so.
I should've already been in bed to sleep this stress and worry and bad thoughtss away, among other reasons, but my stomach gets incredibly upset when stressed/worried/anxious, so. Yeah.
Nvm things I can't mention YET until they're taken care of, b/c of OTHERS mess ups PLUS other situations that have just screwed everything over.
Mako (my SO), linked me to some remote jobs he used to work at and i'll look into those when I wake up and when my brain doesn't feel like it's going to explode.
I don't know what my capabilities are and what I can do, because I've got very strict limits for various things my disabilities that affect my mental/brain which extends to body PLUS body issues that were caused from previous stuff just...
It's not good not good not good not good.
And I wanted to share some GOOD stuff earlier, but the DAY after I had the good, bad happened and then just KEPT HAPPENING. So yeah.
I gotta go sleep.
Oh gosh, I'm so very sorry you are going through all this. I'm praying for you all. Please keep the faith, I know it's hard right now. Stay strong. If we are able to help, we will, if only in prayer. 