I didn't mind work but its been really difficult since we hired the new person-- which is no fault of their own
3 of my coworkers, 2 who are my cluster mates, and one who is the interrim manager till the new manager gains the reins-- all speak spanish and will talk to each other in it, and I sorta get left out which does not feel good

then even tho I stated that I don't like calls and following up is a weak point, they're making me contact people-- which wouldn't be as big of a deal if everyone was doing it; but I'm the only one and my coworker (who was recently promoted to team lead) gets on my case about it even though I've told her I don't like to do it

Plus she's making me follow up every day. Fucking calling people every day. The providers aren't due for reappointment till July. I can do it every other week as a reminder then get aggro about it 4 weeks before its due.

I'm real fucking crunchy about the calls ngl

And then the other annoying thing is that like
I wasn't doing something I wasn't TOLD to do.
My task was to scan the mail and make sure it was all scanned correctly.
No one told me that I had to go through and save it to files. I ASKED and was told all I had to do was scan.
And now I'm getting flack b/c there are scans from Nov that aren't--

saved to folders and I'm real fucking crunchy about it.
I think today was the closest I've ever gotten to having a melt down
I was absolutely fuming and over stimulated the last hour of the day and I'm still feeling affects of it and I hate it!! I hate being mad

Plus I still don't know if they're gonna hire me after my contract ends or what. I hope not tbh b/c I'm burnt out I'm sick of fixing mistakes that were never mine and getting flack for it, and I'm sick of a dysfunctional department that has never done things correctly.
I did this at NWC Beauty and I fucking hate it!!!

idk if like
this boiling point and extreme emotion is b/c of hormones or what, but man; all i wanna do is stay home and cuddle b/c i'm also touch starved

SO TURNS OUT LMAO
at least I don't gotta worry bout this shit anymore