it is definitely canon that he just breaks out the heartwrenching anecdotes sometimes, so

Jedaaaaao. /snugs him

anyway he is definitely not up for clarifying that things with said unnamed superior included rape - he isn't even capable of characterizing it that way because. like. in his head she was his heptarch and he belonged to her and fixating on that is the only way for him not to have a deeply compromising breakdown he can't afford

but it super was

anyway if you are not up for that ever getting clarified lmk

no, I'm absolutely good with wherever it goes at any point, and... Fives doesn't find any of it all that shocking, other than the part where Jedao could actually escape. Awful, yes, but not shocking

B/c with as completely dehumanized as the clones are there is just no way in hell I buy that there wasn't a significant subset of trainers who abused their charges in pretty much any way possible.

In Legends canon some of them set up a fight club and forced little boys to fight to the death, I'm sure there was sexual abuse too, and that they all knew who was involved.

it's very explicit that she let him go deliberately

and then surprised him years later when he thought she'd forgotten about him

"he should have known a fellow Shuos would have a long-term plan"

oh god, just let him think he was safe so tormenting him more would be more satisfying?

yes

Khiaz is so upsetting

AND THEN. They give someone surgery to make her look like Khiaz to see his reaction when they break him out of storage to use their undead general. Yuck.

I'm so skeeved out just thinking about it.

but yeah "she let me go, for awhile" is very

literal

the fact that this is considered the best way to make sure that Jedao hasn't taken over says... a lot

it really fucking does

foxes.

this is not even properly going into why he switched from linguistic analysis to assassination track

but

he's not ready for that

Jedaaaao

yep, Jedao has basically been folded in as a vod

it's so weirdly terrible how much 'citizen' doesn't mean in the He%archate

it's like -

like poker chips

you can put yourself on the table

and be an object of value that matters and is played with and toyed with and thrown around and spent and used up

or you can not do that

and then you're just worthless plastic

you chose to belong to a hex/ptarch when you join a faction, but then at least they'll have some professional interest in not letting the other factions fuck with you

you don't have to choose to be in a faction but if you don't then best keep your head down and hope the vidona don't catch you praying

because anyone could destroy you or exploit you for whatever

Giving yourself to the Kel means giving yourself to Kel Command, which is terrible and fucked up and a literally insane hivemind... and yet /looks at Brezan, who ran headfirst for the Kel and never looked back

a quote I've always thought is very telling

it's an excellent quote

(Granted, Brezan is 4th generation Kel.

which means he knew what it meant

it's true, he did.

but someone had to serve because they wanted things better

BREZAN

The idea of willingly submitting to formation instinct makes my skin crawl. >_> But there are so many good Kel.

and Brezan wishes it worked

I know. He knows he's seen as a failure as a Kel because the injection of the emotional need to obey hierarchy was unsuccessful in his case. /keels over in a puddle of feelings

he's afraid he'll be dismissed because he's a crashhawk.

if you do app him Jedao will just pingpong so hard between delight and so much pain

YOU'RE A GOOD KEL!!!!!

I appreciate that Jedao is still adopting Kel on the Barge.

Even if they're not technically Kel.

he went like two whole days all

'they aren't really Kel, I should be multicultural, I will miss things if I insist on using my own paradigm so-'

and then immediately cracked THE BARGE HAS SO MANY GOOD KEL AND THEY ARE ALL HIS NOW, GOODBYE

Brezan: did you adopt ALL THE KEL; Jedao (looking shifty): also some people who aren't Kel...

yes look, this is Nico, he is obviously my baby shuos analyst who had a training incident and is scared of everything if you yell at him I will skin you

this is tris she's weird

don't yell at her either

for your own safety

pffffffft

If I apped Brezan he couldn't yell at Tris, so.

He'd be safe from that fate.

'this is Kol he's a stupid Andan but he bit me and bribed me with games so now he's mine too'

That's bucky, he's not MY Kel, he's my other Kel's Kel

XD

'this is rosethorn and I'm trying to convince her I'm an adult DO NOT TELL HER STORIES ABOUT ME'

Telling Brezan not to do something just makes him want to do it.

unless it's something like being mean to Nico, because he's not an asshole, gosh.

You didn't need to tell him not to be cruel to a teenage boy.

he has gotten Attached

as he does

he just wants to be clear

he's bad clarity, as a shuos, so he is trying really hard

Jedao introduces people on the barge is hilarious

I want a "how would your character introduce mine" meme.

but I really enjoy Jedao's introductions the most.

(Would Jedao really say that Brezan has to be allowed to chew on everything, like a goat?)

Jedao's welcome to the barge tour would be AMAZING

yes

I would stalk the fuck out of it.

definitely

100%

al;dfj

yOU KNOW HE LIKES HIS FARM METAPHORS

I demand an absurd announcement at some point if I app him, then.

you will recieve

how could you say such an announcement could be anything but purely serious

this is very important

he is dead fucking serious about no one getting his goat

/dies laughing

now I'm imagining Horseriver's introduction to people on the barge, it would basically just be a long list of: I have no clue who that person is but I would bet their not particularly important. if i cared enough to bet

Halfway through Jedao's announcement he has to dodge a thrown knife. Does so with ease.

Tris would give a fairly serious tour of the barge.

but not let on about how much she cares about Certain People On Board.

...it shows up quickly enough without being included in her welcome packet.

lmao Jedao's impression of bill

what would he say about Bill, now I want to know.

"that's the fucker who thinks he can go around using the Shuos sign even though he is a BAD CAR SALESMAN"

"he made a cow ocean once tho"

"that was weirdly cool"

.....what

Jedao is personally offended that Bill is one yellow eye

he should be sneakier if he's going to look like that!!!!

no, I was wondering about the cow ocean.

oh mabel-half of Bill did it in the enclosure during the event

there were many cows

what if we gave Jedao a pet goose on the Barge.

look I'm not saying he isn't considering several plans to make this happen

but after he acquires a bunny for Nico

that's next on his list

Tris would ask the Admiral for pets. She's always surrounded by them, after all.

he would have asked iris but the timing didn't quite line up

alas

Jedao is Unsure about admiral-provided animals

the ones in the enclosure seem totally normal, but

are not

so

true. None of Tris's come from the Admiral. Rosethorn brought the dog back from port, Zeph is one of Alan's constructs, and Chime came with Tris from home.

man, Jedao, you actually have become the first 'official' adoptee XD

you're Being Kept

oh, and that was 'you're welcome, my brother,' (or sibling, it's a non-gendered language)

Fives and Jedao delight me.

he doesn't quite know what to do with him, mind, b/c he reads as a superior officer and an equal/brother BUT he's also an inmate

but he's keeping him

that a tense, bad touch thing with the neck?

no he's just like

'now is not a time for ambiguously intense moans, lets' not do that, we're having a feeling'

LOL

awwww

good, 'cause he's not stopping. It's his default spot for touching--on guys who wear armor 95% of the time, even with it on you can make yourself felt there

the forehead touch is the same--it's actually a stand in for a kiss that evolved from a culture where most people are in armor most of the time. 'Keldabe kiss'

well, back of the neck or back of the arm above the elbow where there's a bag in the plates... otherwise it's nice, hard hammers on the armor

things I desperately want to know

like it's heavily IMPLIED no

no one else speaks the language and his planet is gone

but living ethnic groups lose their languages in sprawling hegemonic empires all the time right now

so like they could have been a multiplanet minority that just assimilated somewhat

or they could actually be wiped out and WE JUST

DON'T KNOW

aw man

Fives would be happy to swap languages if Jedao wants, he's very good with them. And is already going to learn Kryptonian from Clark, b/c why not, right? >.>

also, Jedao might have just lost all hope of ever having personal space

personal space is for dummies who did not spend most of 400 years alone in a box

lol

poor Jedao. Come have your personal space invaded on the regular, you've been adopted... in a very weird sort of sibling sort of not way

he's into it

just ignore the casual sort of incest, it's all good >.>

there's definitely canon consensual regular incest in the hexarchate

Jedao thinks it's weird but he is a fleshborn country bumpkin so!!!!! whatever apparently creche babies do this stuff!!!!!

it's all about consent

lol

such a bumpkin

also look fives you gotta understand

his actual brother? such a nerd

Fives doesn't even have the concept

LOL

shame, his brothers are pretty hot... most of them, anyway

look I'm not saying Jedao would buy tickets to that show but he super definitely would

awwwwww

make him swim in the farm pond, Jedao, and get chased by geese