last year was cute though. hahahahaha.

these last three years, my birthday planners were so funny. coincidence. I knew what they'd planned before that surprise surprised me. hahahaha. there would always a gap while I did it almost-perfectly.

for all of you who do not cherish a birthday as much as I do, I'm sorry for posting these stupid shits. I used to be a birthday planner for my bestfriends in high school.

a birthday planner needs a birthday planner, too. haven't 'hired' one for this year.

my 17th was the worst, I guess. hahahaha. and that's where I begun this sensitiveness and re-think how people really can't satisfy me on my day while I satisfy theirs.

because it seems like people haven't satisfy me enough. or I am too much at this. I know I've grown up. I don't deserve any childish things on my birthday anymore. but deep down there, I want.

enough with birthday issues I've had all these June since I realized I've been growing up. disappointment from how I cherish birthdays so much.

she blew a candle on a cupcake and whispered "happy birthday, Amanda".

idk why but this year I want to celebrate it like Emily celebrated her bday; alone. that scene was suck. but unexpected-ly, I want it.

udah firasat. kuncinya kalo ngadepin 'beginian' lagi emang harus jangan take it way too serious. harus luar-dalem playful. kemon, Tia!