i don't know how to end all this. I've suffer & hurt even more than how much i deserve. ending my life is been my option for the future.

i never want to hurt them, but it seems like i just did.

i shouldn't have suffer this long if only i didn't do things selfishly.

it's just sad that i don't have someone to lean on in times like this, and i blame my self for that.

all i can do is keep silence all the time and cry.

I am longing for care that no one near me gave.

all that I've wanted was to be loved, that's why I did those things.

what would you do if you were on my place?.. I have nothing left to strive more to live.

it was my fault after all, so I must pay for it.

what more can i do if things gets worse?.. I might end my life even for a little reason..