holy shit am I craving for onigiri

I thought I got better but I guess not

I ate a plain bagel with butter about 20 minutes ago and I feel sick and nervous

I feel so uneasy and don't know what to do anymore

I just want to cry

no outlet

then again, I think my pen pal is hot but it's just one photo of him so,

but ugh she was megawatt attractive!

and not only HM but the kind of sister figure I want/ed?? why I'm basing it off on style rather than personality is superficial..

but then this was at campus with 30+ people waiting in line for free food, so it wasn't the best time... but she is how I envisioned HM