I will make more tea and draw more things tomorrow

neuroscience lover in your area

today

tired

not a hallucination saying "hold on to your wishes! they'll be valuable in your next life!" when I'm on the verge of sleep

sleepy

I was playing the sims 4 what

I had constant nightmares bc lol trauma...that I thought was my other self's reality and so I started avoiding sleeping bc I was terrified of what was going to happen to me and what situation other me would wake up in now

I had a psychotic episode where I thought my dreams were an alternate reality and my ex was a god in that other reality and that he had an evil vampire dad that was obsessed with me and did horrible things to me and I kept thinking I could see him and hear him and his voice and I told all my friends abt it at the time and they just were like you're so cool

a lot of the irl's stuff to me is like self-caused delusion rather than having psychosis already and then developing a delusional attachment and I don't like that a lot of ppl are expected to just support and gatekeep ppl's irl's for them rather than like. not necessarily reality checking but trying to help them find better coping mechanisms