I'm back for now. I needed space for my thoughts to be put down. A lot has happened since then.

Goodbye world.

Also, please lang, sa mga may utang sa kin, magbayad na po kayo. Thanks.

So I quit Org B, and out of principle, staying with Org A, even though I don't really wanna be there. I'm just in a downwards spiral.

3. I hate how I feel like I don't belong, anywhere I go. I'm too mediocre for my family, too uninteresting for my friends, or somehow unrelatable for others.

2. I hate how this feeling of dread always looms over me. It's like I don't have the right to feel joy

I'm not going to heal anytime soon. It's only a matter of time before I'm eaten alive.

Here comes my 1 AM rants.
1. It's hard to lead people from a place of brokenness and depression

Hi Plurk in 2019. I'm glad Plurk is kinda a safe place for me

Lol anxiety on a birthday weekend. Fuck this shit.