merry christmas michelle...

my chest feels tight...like i'm about to have a heartattack...

i'm not needed...

i can't talk to her the same way as before

like in the sims games, there are things you can no longer say or do once a certain relationship ends...

winter is looming and its getting colder... w/o her it'll be the coldest winter...

but then i realized it was all in my head... i dunno if i'll ever be with her again or if she'll be happy with me...

i imagined being with her and living with her today during my break and it made me happy

i guess she wasn't planning on being on to chat with but just to check, must've bothered her when i said hi...

she'll be working again... hanging out with her friends... with the people who make her happy... i'm just dirt on the roadside for her now..