if you , you the person I love , if you're reading this, please help me end my loneliness, will you ?

him very much now. Th most , th most, very most . Compared to last time .

being alone without him ,

if God really hates me .

to ___ .

tired .

I once thought it was the end of problems, just waiting to be solved. But this had to happen .

these /

I can't go on anymore .

these to stop, or just let my life stop , throw me to the end of life .