how many days , hours , minutes and months , years can i hid ? can i hid till so long ?

i hid it in my heart secretly.

but .

i dnt have any rights to say i love you or even i had fall back to you.

is i am the one who chose it.

and not god asked me to do so.

but all this i do, is just to betray my own heart, be a rebellious girl, but holding to that only last breathe is not just god had give me.

there is really lots of chances came, some accepted, some rejected, some i lie, some i dont wish to see at all.

and i still dont understand why i still cant get over you.

it takes me 1month to listen to that song,