I have to rip the band-aid off and accept life for what it is. I just don't have the energy to focus rp anymore with all of my stress. So with that, I'm going to have to drop G'raha & Songerein. I have been trying to hang on for as long as possible because I love Songerein and all of the CR I had. A lot of it, I either wanted to branch out and

make more CR. Or I had CR that I really adored but hadn't had a chance to tag in a long while. There were also a few plans and ideas that I really wanted to do, but couldn't find the time or energy for them. I'm sure this comes as no surprise to many of you & to be honest? I'm really frustrated that I couldn't make it work.

I've been doing my best to be better, and now is just not the time I guess. If you've been following my plurks (how few they've become), you'll probably know about my work & financial situation. I'm so incredibly exhausted from it and my creative outlets have really taken a beaten. Between art, streaming, and rp, I've been feeling really dried up on

inspiration and motivation. If not, this is the TL;DR of what's been going on.
1. I lost my job a while back & scrapped for another to keep myself up
2. I found another, but the long story short is that they treated me like shit, fucked up every pay check, screwed me over on hours, and I've been broke 3-5 times in the last half year.

3. Moved over to another section & was much happier there with hours, but eventually they cut back hours and I went from 32 hours a week at least to 8 hours a week if I was lucky. That left me with working 4 days in 2 weeks total a few times.
4. Found the job I'm at now with better pay and definitely the hours, but after some bs, basically had my position

that I was hired for given to someone else without so much as being talked to about it prior or after the fact. I learned about it from the person who took my job essentially.
5. The only reason I'm getting by is because friends and family have been giving me money, and I hate not being able to do anything in return to pay them back somehow. Whether it be

money or art or some other good deed.

I could go on and on and on about the shit I've been dealing with, but most days, I get back from work, tired and not up for doing something that requires a lot thinking.

It isn't fair for me to squat and hold onto a slot & character when honestly?? I have no idea when I'll finally be able to stabilize myself with enough money to afford my bills, food, and have stuff set aside for little things or just in case. Not to mention a job that doesn't dick me over. That's the real hassle there. I'm trying my best to get there

but I have no idea how long that will take at this point.

I just want to apologize for the people I have CR with for being awful and I wish I could attribute it all to just "a bad year," but realistically? The last few years have been bad for me mentally anyway.

There's a few other problems here and there, but I won't bore you with the specifics since that may take a while. What I do want to say is that I do really want to come back as soon as I can. I'm not ready to say goodbye permanently. I just... don't know when that will be. Whenever it is, I want to be sure that I can absolutely

handle a game again. I am open to psls and memes, of course, but will likely be pretty slow to getting to them. Please feel free to defriend me if you only had me added for the game. I completely understand! Otherwise, I'd be glad to hoard you all like a dragon hoards its shinies.

I'm so sorry it came down to this.

I had this pre-written last night, but it was like... 3am so I didn't want to post it at weird hours

you gotta do what you gotta do i hope things look up for you Luna, it's not fun being in that position.

yeah.... things were looking better and then the other shoe dropped again

im just very tired honestly

I feel you. I hope things finally stop being ass and start looking up for you soon.

I especially feel bad because I love G'radhuri so much

Thank you for all of the great times, Ami. I'm probably going to be slow/nonexistent with psls too but eyes the ones we have at the moment and others

wishing you the best of luck

I know what it is like to be jobless for a long while

or in a job that is ungrateful

get yourself to a place where you are comfortable

i hope you come back when you're able tho!!!

I definitely plan to

i hope things start looking up soon!! we'll be here whenever they do 💖

Wishing the best for you

you and me both dear take care of yourself

sorry to see you go!!! please come back when things get less hectic

I hope I can sooner than later

late but